Whitney

2003-12-22T01:28:00.000-05:00

i love DRACO MALFOY.. HES MY BOYFRIEND* AHHHH WEVE BEEN DATING FOR 28374239872394 YEARS.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SINCE IM A GHOST AND ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM! TO DEATH!!!!!!!!!! GET IT? BYEBYE I LOVE YOU MALFOY! I HATE HARRY POTTER.. BRING MY COFFEE BOY! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAA WAIT MR FILCH U DONT UNDERSTAND!! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGRRRRRRRIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! AHAHAHAHHAA BYE MALFOY.. WE WILL MEET AGAIN POTTAAA!!

2003-07-24T22:16:00.000-05:00

ok well it is pretty obvious that i pissed some people off with what i said last, and i didnt mean to.... just because i say friends doesnt mean i am talking about a certain person, and all they freakin do is tell me to talk to them about how i feel and then i write down how i feel so they can read it then they bash me and tell me how selfish i am when all i am doing is expressin my self... i mean really guys all i wanted was for people to listen, i didnt want any feed back or anything, i just wanted to get my thoughts out so i wouldnt keep them all balled up, and i knew that if i went to anybody and talked to them all they would say is.... its ok everybody has stress or i have more stress than you, and i know that this summer, addie and aundreeuh, i havent been the greatest friend and i am sorry for that maybe once you have forgiven me i can make it up, and i know that people have stress but i have NO OTHER WAY of getting it out other than writing it down, so dont think that i am just doing this so i can complain i just want to get my feelings out. i know that a week ago i scared the crap out of some people who care a lot about me, and i know that i was slefish then, but i am sorry for causing you any worries, addie and andrea, I LOVE YOU both to death, and i know that you are here for me, and i am here for you too, and i know that i havent shown it this summer..... once again i am sorry :( please forgive me...., this remids me of a song..... so no one told you life was going to be this way, your jobs a joke you're broke your love life is D.O.A, it's like your always stuck in 2nd gear, when it hasnt been your day, your week, your month, or even your year, but i will be there for you, when the rain starts to pour, i'll be there for you, like i've been there before, i'll be there for you cause you are there for me too :)

2003-07-23T22:01:00.000-05:00

Ok, i have so much going on in my life, i strive to be everything that everybody wants me to be and i can't take it anymore... i try to be the "perfect daughter" the best sister, the best friend, the best stranger, the nicest person..... but you know i just couldnt handle it anymore so i decide that this summer i would make it a summer i would never forget, so i found some people who could help me forget all my worries and it helped a lot.... until i got caught. you know all these adults say to me "why should you have any worries? your only 17"... well you know what, just because i am 17 doesnt mean i dont have responsibilities i have a job, i have a car payment, i have a phone bill, i have a computer bill, yea sure i dont pay rent or anything, but i have to keep up my grades go to church go down the right path set a good example... and sometimes i just want to scream and tell them that i cant i am NOT perfect, i DONT have all the answer.... ITS not EASY being 17. i went to the doctor the other day.... and i took a stress test i scored pretty high on it.... and hmmm i wonder why? i have all these people telling me to do this and do it this way, act this way... dont think for your self,... choose a future, choose a college, choose a carrer... BUT I DONT HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS!!! then i have sisters who are suppose to be there for you oh but all they do is look at me and tell me that i am a horrible person and that everything i do is wrong. then i have people who dont really help with the stress they just tell you that you are a normal teenager.... when i know i am not and something is wrong. then i have friends who tell me what i do is wrong and the judge me for what i do and all i want to do is make my own decisions, but i cant with everybody breathing down my neck. then i have parents who tell me that i need to walk down this path and i need to do things this way and i need make this decision and what they really need to do is let me make my own choices! they think my trying to make my choices for me is eaiser... well its not!

*Whitney*

Whitney